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Packet #5 (Part 1/90):

More Support For My Philosophy + Extensive Q&A Section

Note to Reader: You might wonder why this packet is so long. It's because I discuss other things in addition to my philosophy/worldview. Although I do think these other discussed things are important, I don't think they're that important to warrant their own files, and they were relevant to the discussion of my philosophy.

That's why they're all discussed in this big file. Many people might say this is an entire book I've written, rather than a packet. I had nothing better to do than write all this material, since I couldn't enjoy my life or hobbies, due to my miserable struggles (especially this recent struggle, which took the longest to recover from). Lastly, a value judgment is where you judge something as good, bad, beautiful, horrible, disgusting, etc.

So, perceiving value would have to mean perceiving goodness, badness, beauty, disgust, horror, etc. When we have no emotions, nothing can matter to us (since we're apathetic), and we can't see value, worth, or significance in anything. There will be people out there who'd deny this. But, I think it's true. I try to prove how emotions make things matter to us, and allow us to perceive value below:

I Think I Can Prove The Emotional Perception Theory Of Value: Considering how there are many people out there who disagree with the emotional perception theory of value, I think there's a way for me to personally prove it. This is my own personal argument, which is an attempt to translate emotions into perceptions of value. Positive emotions are the reward wanting and liking in the brain. When you want something and like something, this means it matters to you.

When something is good, bad, beautiful, disgusting, etc. from your perspective, this means it matters to you. For example, if getting a new video game, or movie, was something good or bad for you, that means it was something good or bad from your perspective, which is the same thing as saying it mattered to you. As I mentioned before, positive emotions make things matter to us in good ways, and negative emotions make things matter to us in bad ways, since positive emotions are the perception of good, and negative emotions are the perception of bad.

Now, the only way something can have value to you is if it matters to you. How can you say that helping someone had value, or even worth to you, if it didn't matter to you? It makes no sense. A life that doesn't matter to us would, thus, have to be a life that has no value from our perspective. Also, when you perceive value, that's the same thing as a value judgment. So, this whole argument I've made here also proves emotions are value judgments. Lastly, here's a link (study) that shows how positive emotions are the reward wanting and liking in the brain:

We have found a special hedonic hotspot that is crucial for reward 'liking' and 'wanting' (and codes reward learning too). The opioid hedonic hotspot is shown in red above. It works together with another hedonic hotspot in the more famous nucleus accumbens to generate pleasure 'liking'.

'Liking' and 'wanting' food rewards: Brain substrates and roles in eating disorders

Kent C. Berridge 2009 Mar 29.


For Those Who Disagree Positive Emotions Are Wanting And Liking: I think there will also be people out there who disagree that positive emotions are a form of wanting and liking. So, here's proof for them. Emotions are a form of motivation. When you have a positive form of motivation to do something, this means you want to do it and like to do it. The religious form of my worldview would say that the force of light (positive emotions) motivates us to have a relationship, create works of art, and to live our lives to the fullest.

Yes, The Light is unreliable, since it can result in harming us and others. But, it's still the only source of beauty and joy in our lives. The Darkness can also motivate us, but makes our lives bad and horrible. The force of light is from the heavens, and the force of darkness is from the lower realms. So, positive emotions symbolize heaven, and negative emotions symbolize hell. Having no emotions symbolizes The Void (or limbo, which is neither heaven nor hell). Our positive emotions make us angels on the inside, our negative emotions make us demons or beings of darkness on the inside, and having apathy just makes us empty vessels on the inside.

A Little Experiment: I have performed a little experiment here, and it's already clear to me that my emotions really are perceptions of value that give my life perceived value. There are certain stimuli that trigger positive or negative emotions, and then there are the types of stimuli that trigger no emotional response. When I look at the cup sitting there on my desk, it triggers no emotional response. I can clearly tell this cup doesn't matter to me and has no perceived value. It's nothing more than just a cup sitting there.

Sure, I can think it has perceived value and worth in my life, and that it matters to me. But, those thoughts are just ideas going through my mind that don't make the cup matter to me, or perceived as valuable and worthwhile. Now, when I turn my sights over to something that does trigger a positive emotion, such as a character from a video game or anime, I can clearly tell this character matters to me, and has such beauty and joy from my perspective upon feeling a positive emotion.

I clearly notice that all stimuli that trigger no emotional response are stimuli that have no perceived value (don't matter to me), while the stimuli that do trigger an emotional response are the stimuli that have perceived value (do matter to me). When people mistreat me and I feel a negative emotion from that, this mistreatment bothers me. But, when I don't feel any negative emotions from their mistreatment, then it doesn't bother me.

This is yet another reason why I'd prefer a life without negative emotions because this would mean that any name calling or mistreatment others give me wouldn't bother me. I'd be immune to it. Anyway, like I was saying before. If people perform this little experiment and report the opposite of my results, then this is just something I don't understand.

We live in a society where we're expected to go beyond our emotions. Thus, we tend to dismiss them as trivial when, in reality, they're vital and the very source of perceived value in our lives. So, maybe this would be a contributing factor to any results opposite of mine in this experiment. I have a keen sense of introspection, and I can clearly tell that emotions make things matter to me and give my life beauty, love, or horror. Maybe others don't have this keen sense of introspection.

My Nightmares: During my worst miserable moments, I've had very horrible nightmares. They've profoundly affected me, since they've consisted of very horrible emotional states far worse than anything I could experience in my waking life. But, then there were those nightmares I've had, which didn't have these horrible emotions.

These nightmares didn't affect me at all, and I've woken up from them like they were nothing. They were nightmares I've had when I was almost fully recovered from those miserable moments. This clearly says that emotions are what give us beautiful or horrible experiences, and that you can have nightmares that consist of the most gruesome, demonic, or hellish imagery and sounds.

But, as long as said nightmares don't have any horrible, disturbing emotions to them, then they're nothing more than images and sounds. They can't possess any horrifying or disturbing power to them. Another thing about dreams and nightmares is that spirits can contact us.

They can be angel spirits, demon spirits, or any spirit in general. Their spiritual energy will be received by our brains during our dreams and nightmares, which allows us to experience their angelic beauty, demonic horror, misery, despair, happiness, etc. via our emotions.

Changing My Philosophy Might Prove Very Difficult: As I said before, my philosophy is profoundly spiritual to me like a religion. Therefore, it would be that more difficult to change. It would be like trying to convert a Christian over to some other worldview, such as atheism, or to some philosophy. Most Christians I know remain Christians their entire lives. Few of them convert. As for me, I am 30 years old now.

Chances are, I might have this philosophy my whole entire life. Also, most Christians have a disagreement and conflict with atheists, or people with different worldviews. This is no different than how I disagree and debate with other people. What makes this situation even worse for me is that there are many factors that can take away my positive emotions.

If I'm ever put into a position where I lose my positive emotions, and they can't sufficiently recover back to me, this would put me in a position where changing my philosophy is the only option of changing my life for the better, and giving me a whole new set of values.

Unfortunately, this would be no different than putting a Christian in a position where converting over from his religion is the only way to change his life for the better. It would obviously prove very difficult to try to convert this Christian, since he thinks any other worldview is false, and that any set of values not founded upon Christianity aren't the truth.

Anime Metaphor: Since I love anime, then I'm going to use an anime metaphor for my worldview. As I said before, I'd describe the perception of beauty, greatness, and joy to be a divine state of consciousness, since it's something so vital and precious to our lives. This goes quite well with the anime metaphor I'm going to give.

The anime I'm going to use is Dragon Ball Super, if you're familiar with that show. Imagine if I was a character out on the field, meeting another character. I then induce a profoundly beautiful positive emotion by thinking of something very beautiful.

This positive emotion is a powerful, intense surge of divine beauty and joy through my conscious being. It transforms me into a Super Saiyan God. I'm now in a divine state of consciousness through this positive emotional state, and that's the reason why I'm now in this god-like/divine form. This form has beautiful aura, and there's beautiful music playing to express my divine form.

I then tell the other character on the field that this form is the ultimate thing in this universe, and nothing compares to it. I tell this character that positive emotions are, therefore, the ultimate divine things in this universe, and that he cannot match such power through his intellect and character.

Especially euphoric states, since these would be the most powerful god-like forms. The character then responds back to me by saying that I transform into the Super Saiyan God through my positive emotions, but that he transforms into the Super Saiyan God through his intellect, character, and morality. Now, there are two possibilities here.

The 1st is that this character would transform into a Super Saiyan God, which would mean he really is in that divine mental state (that state of perceiving beauty and joy). As a matter of fact, his Super Saiyan God form could be much more powerful and beautiful than mine.

He might tell me he has much more knowledge and life experience than me, and that's the reason why his form is so much greater than mine. From there, he'd tell me his form is everlasting, unlike mine, which only lasts for a short while. If this 1st scenario is the case, then I'd be very interested in obtaining the Super Saiyan God form this guy has.

It would bring my life perceived beauty and joy that, not only goes beyond that of my positive emotions, but is everlasting. But, there is a 2nd possibility here. That is, this guy could attempt to transform into a Super Saiyan God through his intellect and character, but won't.

He then might say to me he's a Super Saiyan God, when he really isn't. If this is the case, then he doesn't have that divine state of consciousness. He believes he's perceiving beauty and joy in his life when he really isn't.

From there, I'd tell him I'm the real god through my positive emotions, and that his intellect, character, and morality is nothing compared to positive emotions. So, there's my anime metaphor. I wanted to give this metaphor, since it makes my worldview more interesting.

While I'm on the topic of anime, if I were to feel profound beauty and joy from, for example, a female character, then it's as though her joyful and beautiful presence is there within my conscious being for a limited time only. So, not only do we experience the beauty and joy of moments and things in our lives through our positive emotions, but also the beauty and joy of certain characters.

What I've Learned From My Struggles: I've struggled with many miserable moments, due to unhealthy thought processes. This misery and hopelessness took up much of my life, and was the worst hell to be in. I've finally broken free of that cycle. What I've learned from this whole struggle is just how vital and precious positive emotions really are. In the past, I took them for granted and thought that perhaps there's more value to life, despite the fact that I was a hedonist in the past.

Now, I've come to realize that positive emotions truly are the only good in life through my whole struggle. This has made me into a religious hedonist, which means I'm much more of a hedonist now than I was before. How do I know positive emotions really are the only good things in life though? Well, I have a keen sense of introspection. That's how I know. I have no scientific evidence or anything else.

I just have my personal experience and my own introspection. What's interesting is that my own introspection has led me to conclude that emotions are the perception of value. Sure enough, I later discovered the emotional perception theory of value. Clearly, I might be on to something then. Therefore, this could mean my worldview was right all along, and that other people, who claim there's more value to life than emotions, could be having a flawed sense of introspection.

Remember, I pay very close attention to my mental state, and it's all about what mental state I'm in because perception is everything. As long as a person cannot perceive his life as something beautiful and worth living, then what would it matter to that person if you told him his life is still beautiful and worth living? He'd just be an empty vessel or a being of darkness, and none of that would actually make his life beautiful and worth living from his perspective.

My Brain Would Have Adapted: Our brains have the ability to adapt to new situations, harsh situations, and conditions. For example, someone who has lost a loved one, and sees no more beauty in life, would eventually adapt to the situation. He'd move on and find a new sense of beauty in his life. Now, as I said before, I've struggled with many years of misery. One would think my brain would've adapted to all that misery, and that I would've eventually had a new form of beauty in my life besides my positive emotions. But, none of that happened. Not even in one, single, brief moment.

This could very well mean positive emotions really are the only mental states that allow us to value things as good and beautiful because, if there was another way to value things as good and beautiful, then surely my brain would've adapted and found a way to. One would've thought that me having gone through so much misery would've changed my philosophy. After all, people who go through a lot of struggles end up having a different philosophy, which would be their brain's way of adapting to new situations.

For example, if a rich person loses all his money, his view would change from seeing money as the only good thing in life, to helping others as good. No such change has happened to me. So, the fact my philosophy still remains the same, even after all the hell I've been through, must mean my philosophy was right all along. Those who've developed a different philosophy than mine through their struggles, must be deluding themselves into thinking that the non-emotional based beauty, goodness, love, happiness, etc. is real, when it's not.

Other Person's Response: Since there's so much to read in this packet, then how are people supposed to know where they last left off reading?

My Reply: If they open this document in, for example, Microsoft Word, then I think the software automatically gives this whole document page numbers. So, people can write down the page number they last left off reading.

Packet #4 (Part 3/3):

Given this, I see no reason for others to complain and call me a pathetic, worthless human being if I've chosen to be that blissful vegetable in that bed in a pretend scenario. Rather, others should understand that positive emotions truly are the only things that can make our lives beautiful. Sure, we can help others to make them feel positive emotions. But, we still need our own positive emotions to perceive that endeavor as something beautiful, great, and worthwhile.

I agree that might sound absurd, false, and ridiculous. But, plenty of things that sound absurd are, in fact, true things. So, just because my worldview sounds cruel and unfair for those who struggle with depression, as well as other mental illnesses that take away their positive emotions, and just because my worldview sounds absurd and false, doesn't make it false. You see, I'm all about the truth here, regardless of how offensive said truth might be.

I'm not about sugar coating things and telling depressed people their lives can still be beautiful without their positive emotions, just because this is something they'd like to hear. I think I've arrived at the unpleasant truth through my own personal experience, and I'm going to share and express that truth. I'm tired of my own emotions being dismissed as trivial things, and I'll speak up for myself and explain to others that they really are value judgments that give our lives value.

I Blame It On The Creator: If there is a creator (god), then I put the blame on him for giving me the capacity to feel negative emotions, and I also put the blame on him for making this life filled with misery, suffering, and hardship.

This is a life that's very unhappy, which makes positive emotions something very fleeting. We need to live a blissful, utopia life. I mean, why did he have us live a life that takes away the one and only thing that can make our lives beautiful, joyful, and worth living (our positive emotions)?

Surely, if god wants his creations to become beautiful and joyful beings of light like him, then he would've created a blissful utopia for us all. I realize we're supposed to be multidimensional beings, which means we're beings capable of experiencing more than just the beauty and joys of life.

We're also capable of experiencing sorrow, misery, and despair. Personally, I think it was a mistake then to make us multidimensional beings. We need to be those one dimensional beings who can only feel positive emotions.

Another thing here. I realize it was my own unhealthy thought processes that induced my states of misery. But it's really his fault because god, and the spiritual beings in the heavenly realms, could've at least rendered me without the capacity to feel any negative emotions. That way, any unhealthy thought process wouldn't have made me felt miserable.

This would mean I wouldn't have struggled with all those horrible, miserable moments, and I could've instead been happy during that whole time. This whole miserable struggle of mine was a complete waste of my life. So many people struggle with misery, whether it be misery due to unfortunate circumstances, or unhealthy thought processes that need to be changed.

If it weren't for suffering and misery in the first place, then we wouldn't be able to create our own hell on Earth. We'd only be able to create a beautiful paradise on Earth for us through our positive emotions. Having hell, suffering, torment, and misery only creates major problems, and I think there's no good reason for those things to exist.

Some people would say there is a good reason, and that reason being it's for our own learning and growing. But, learning and growing is nothing good. Only positive emotions are good, since they're the only good things in life. Therefore, learning and growing is all pointless, and life should've been a blissful utopia right from the start.

Actually, positive emotions are what make learning and growing something beautiful and positive. So, learning and growing through misery and despair is pointless. It can only be happy forms of learning and growing that are good and beautiful. An example being me having fun and enjoying the whole learning process of how to compose.

Also, it can only be happy battles that are beautiful, such as having fun, playing sports, or having fun, battling with your opponents in a video game. Miserable and unhappy forms of learning, growing, struggles, and battles simply have no reason for existing. My mother has money issues, and I see no reason for her to go through this whole struggle, when god could've made her rich and happy right from the start.

She always complains how living this poor life is a shit way to live, and that she would've been much better off if she was rich from the beginning. That way, she could have luxuries for herself, and she could give money to the poor. But, since she's poor and has no way of earning big bucks, then that denies her of her needs, and that denies other poor people of their needs.

Not only is my mother's financial issues one of these pointless struggles, but there are forms of suffering so horrible that they're obviously pointless. An example being Hitler burning the Jews alive. How's that anything positive for the Jews, and how's that any form of learning and growing for them? The way I see it, life was much better off being a fun, happy, beautiful, joyful adventure (a utopia world).

After all, many people are trying to make this world a better place, and many scientists hope to create the blissful, utopia life for us in the distant future. Therefore, what does this say about diseases, illnesses, struggles, misery, and suffering? It says it's all pointless, never had any real value, and was something to be eliminated since the very beginning.

But, god didn't eliminate these things in the beginning. Therefore, we are left to go through all this trouble of trying to eliminate these things ourselves, and it's not a happy process. Some god that is! He could've made us perfect creations who don't suffer, and he could've made this life a utopia for us all. But, he didn't. Or, maybe, god isn't someone to be put to blame.

Maybe he's just a thing like water that has no intentions. I mentioned earlier that god was this ball of light energy. So, perhaps it's the case we need the light within us, just like how we need water/liquids. You can't blame water if you're someone living in an area of the world, where you're suffering and scarce of water.

Likewise, you can't blame god (the ball of light) if you're someone suffering and scarce of positive emotions. Water is our body's sustenance, and The Light would be our soul's sustenance. We can be physically and spiritually deprived, and neither water, nor The Light, can be put to blame. So, as you can see here, I treat beauty as being a materialistic thing like water or money.

Thoughts/beliefs alone won't give you water or money, and they, alone, can't give any real beauty to your life either. Many spiritual believers talk about transcending our materialistic desires. One of these people would be the Buddhists. But, I really think all things beautiful, positive, and joyful amounts to one, materialistic thing: the positive emotions/the inner light. So, when Buddhists talk about another form of happiness besides positive emotions, they're lying.

They think, if they practice and meditate long enough, they can achieve this form of happiness they claim exists. But, would practicing and meditating long enough allow you to have a new form of hunger and thirst, a new way to feel physical pain, or a new way to hear sound? No! If you're not hungry, thirsty, feeling any physical pain, or hearing any sound, then no other mental state can be real hunger, thirst, physical pain, or sound.

Recap: Intellect, morality, and character involves our way of thinking and believing. For example, people would say, if you wish to care about someone intellectually, or if you wish for your life to have real perceived beauty, then you'd truly think "I care about this person," "I wish to live my life helping him/her out," or "My life is beautiful." But, I don't think thoughts and beliefs are enough to give perceived value to our lives or care about someone. Something more is needed.

As I said before, thoughts/beliefs themselves aren't the real things, they aren't real emotions, and they aren't any real source of value in our lives. To experience real beauty or real horror, this is something that goes beyond our thoughts and beliefs. It's like a divine life force from the heavens, and it's like a horrific life force from hell. It would be our positive and negative emotions.

Living our lives by thoughts/beliefs alone isn't enough. We need to have a positive life force/energy breathed into our conscious being in order for things, moments, situations, and works of art to truly come alive in beauty and joy from our perspective. That life force would be our positive emotions, and our positive emotions are like the breath of god into our conscious being.

They are the Life of the Cosmos, and they are everything to our human existence. No thoughts/beliefs can ever give us such a profoundly beautiful perception/experience. I simply do not understand, nor comprehend, how anyone could think that thoughts/beliefs themselves can give our lives a real beautiful or horrible experience, and how they can allow us to perceive value in our lives.

With all of this being said, there are the intellectual value judgments, and then there are the emotional value judgments. One set of value judgments is real, and one set is fake. I don't think both sets can be real. It would be like having two cases of money, and me being a detective to try to figure out which case consists of real money, and which case consists of fake money. To me, the answer is quite obvious.

Our intellectual value judgments are fake, and our emotional value judgments are real, since they're something akin to value judgments from heaven and hell being experienced within our conscious being. They're like spiritual value judgments, and it would be like our souls are making value judgments, rather than us simply thinking of beauty, horror, etc. That's why I'd describe our emotional value judgments as being "The Values of the Soul," since they're the real values in our lives.

However, if it's the case that both our intellectual and emotional value judgments are real (which would mean that I really can have an intellectual source of value in my life), then, if I were to be in the worst, miserable state of my life, that would make my life very horrible, since that miserable, emotional state would make me perceive my life as very horrible.

But, at the same time, if I were to truly believe that my life is still beautiful intellectually, that would also make my life beautiful, since I'd be perceiving beauty through my intellect. However, my life would be half horrible and half beautiful, which wouldn't be as good as my life being all beautiful.

Actually, it would be the profoundness and intensity of the intellectual and emotional based values that determines the degree of each type of value in my life. For example, if I was in a very horrible, miserable state, then that would bring my life something like 80% horrible value. But, if I had the slight thought in my mind that my life is still beautiful, then that would only give me 20% beautiful value, since that thought was weak and not as profound compared to that miserable state.

Conclusion: In conclusion, the intellectual area of our brains is nothing more than a cold, lifeless machine used for decision making and analysis. It, alone, doesn't give us any real beautiful, horrible, joyful, tragic, sad, or miserable experience. It's such a shame that our emotional values are so fleeting because intellectual based values would be everlasting values if they were real, and they wouldn't be fleeting like our emotions.

I always find myself giving up on my life and hobbies whenever I struggle with an emotional trauma or an absence of positive emotions because, without my positive emotions, then it's an empty, worthless life. So, for me to not give up on my life and hobbies, then I require my positive emotions, or some new mental state (experience). It's not about what we think or believe. It's about the mental state. You see, if I ever lose my positive emotions, due to depression, or some other factor, then I require a mental state that is truly positive in my life.

It has to be a mental state that brings my life real beauty and joy, just like how my positive emotions have. It cannot be a matter of me simply having a new mindset, where I truly think and believe: "My life and hobbies are still beautiful and worth living for." It doesn't matter what attitude I have, what I do, or what I think; without an actual positive, mental state, then my life would still be devoid of any real beauty and joy. I would, thus, have no real positive experience in my life.

So, I think it's very important that others realize there's a big difference between the thoughts and beliefs we have going through our minds, and if we're having a real positive or negative experience or not. Like I said before, for me, my positive emotions are the positive experience, and I have yet to acquire a new positive experience that'll convince me there's more beauty, greatness, fun, and joy to life than positive emotions. The same idea applies to my negative emotions.

Side Note #1: I have still made decisions that would benefit myself, others, and keep us out of harm's way, regardless of my emotional state. But, that doesn't mean my intellectual decision was any real source of value in my life. Like I said before, the intellectual area of our brains isn't any real source of value in our lives. Rather, it just allows us to make certain decisions, to analyze things, and to have control and dominance over our emotions.

It gives us the idea that certain things and decisions are good or bad. But, it can only be our emotions that allow us to perceive these things and decisions as good or bad. So, the only way to perceive a certain thing or decision as being good would be if you felt a positive emotion from it, and the only way to perceive it as bad would be if you felt a negative emotion from it.

Side Note #2: Hedonism is a very popular philosophy, which states that having fun and enjoying our lives, through our positive emotions, is the only good and beautiful way to live. Given all the arguments I've come up with to support this whole idea that positive emotions are the only good things in life, the hedonists could really be on to something then. So, hedonism might've been the correct worldview all along. Here is a link to hedonism:


Now, there are the masochists, who are the opposite of hedonists. They claim they love, enjoy, and perceive beauty in their misery. But, again, having thoughts/beliefs in your mind isn't the same thing as actual liking, enjoying, and perceiving beauty. The only way to truly like something, enjoy something, to have a positive interest in something, and to perceive beauty would be through our positive emotions. Therefore, these masochists must've had a positive emotion on some level, mixed in with their misery.

Otherwise, they'd be delusional and in denial to think that positive emotions aren't any real source of liking or beauty in their lives, and that it's what they think and believe that allow them to like things, and to perceive beauty. In addition, emotions are the only things that can make moments, situations, people, and works of art matter to us. No thoughts/beliefs can, and just because people live their lives as though they do, doesn't make it true. Plenty of people live in denial. An example would be people who lived as though Thor the God of Thunder was real.

Just because people lived their lives as though Thor was real, and claimed he was real, doesn't mean he was real. So, just because people live their lives as though intellectual based values are real, doesn't mean they are real. I think humanity is living their lives by the wrong definition of value judgments, the wrong definition of emotions, and the wrong definition of what makes things matter to them. They define these things as their thoughts and beliefs when, in reality, it's their primitive, instinctive emotions.

This would have to mean emotionally numb, apathetic people who have no ability to feel positive emotions, are just living out the motions, since nothing can matter to them. It would be like a machine or a robot just performing tasks, which is no way to live or be an artist. Just because these apathetic people claim their lives matter to them, and live their lives as though it all matters to them, doesn't make it so.

My Final Statement: People are not awakened to the truth of many things, and humanity has lived their lives blind and in denial of such truths. Perhaps one of the greatest truths would be that of our own consciousness (personal experience). What can be more important in life than experiencing nature and this universe as beautiful, amazing, and worth living?

That god-given experience would be our positive emotions, and humanity has a huge misconception regarding emotions that renders them blind and in denial. That misconception being that emotions are just these trivial things, that they're nothing more than just feelings, that they don't make things matter to them, and that they aren't value judgments.

Instead, humanity bases their whole experience on intellect/morality/character, and claim that these are the real value judgments, that they're a real source of value, and that they're a real beautiful, horrible, painful, or pleasant experience. I think this all needs to change, and there needs to be a revolution of consciousness enlightenment. Humanity needs to be awakened to emotions being the real source of value in their lives.

Instead, they focus on thoughts/beliefs, and this whole idea of carrying on in life, even if you feel miserable, apathetic, or just plain unhappy. They think that's the real source of beauty when it never was. An example being people who feel miserable, but just carry on with their daily work lives. They think it's not about how they feel, and that the real source of value in their lives comes about through helping others and contributing to the world.

So, humanity is more in touch with other things, and they've lost their sense of introspection into their own personal experience. If humanity had the keen sense of introspection I have, then they'd come to realize that emotions really are value judgments, and that they're the real source of value to our lives.

If people keep telling me I'm wrong, and that emotions aren't perceptions of value, then I'll keep telling them I have much more insight into my own personal experience than they have into theirs, and that they're wrong.

Since humanity is wrong about their emotions not being value judgments, how do you expect me to trust humanity when they claim their intellectual value judgments are real value judgments? Given that humanity is in denial of their own emotions, they could also be in denial when it comes to their intellect.

Packet #4 (Part 2/3):

The 2 Types Of Meaning: If someone said: "Do you know what it means if you take this medicine? It means you'll be well again!," then this is a form of meaning a person's life can have in the absence of his emotions. It's still a meaning he can perceive in the absence of his emotions. Another example would be that mathematical and scientific meanings can still be perceived in the absence of emotions. But, there's another form of meaning, and it would be the beautiful, horrible, tragic, etc. meaning that works of art, situations, and life holds in our eyes. An example of this one would be if a person said:

"That artwork holds such beautiful meaning!," or "That event was so tragic!" The only way this form of meaning can be perceived is through one's emotions. So, if you were witnessing a work of art, then the only way to see beautiful or tragic meaning in said artwork would be to feel beauty or tragedy about the artwork. Those feelings would be positive and negative emotions. Without emotions, then one's life can only have the 1st type of meaning. But, it can't have any beautiful, tragic, etc. meaning. So, our emotions are what give beautiful, horrific, tragic, etc. meaning to works of art, situations, moments, and life itself.

Emotions Really Are The Only Value Judgments: People might say to me that emotions can't be the only value judgments, and the only perceptions of beauty, horror, etc. because thoughts of beauty or horror make us feel beauty or horror, and we'd have to determine that something is beautiful or horrific through our way of thinking in the first place. So, people might conclude that this determination would have to be a value judgment/perception of beauty or horror.

This might lead people to the conclusion that intellectual value judgments are real value judgments. But, they wouldn't be value judgments because determining that something is beautiful or horrific isn't the same thing as a value judgment, and neither is it the same thing as seeing beauty and horror in things. A value judgment, according to my philosophy, is defined as actually seeing beauty, horror, etc. in things., which means emotions are the only value judgments, since they're the only way we can see beauty, horror, etc. in things.

Since emotions are value judgments, and since they're also perceptions of beauty, horror, etc, then that means a value judgment is the same thing as an emotion, which is also the same thing as a perception of beauty, horror, etc. That's why I define a value judgment as seeing (perceiving) beauty, horror, etc., since they're the same thing. So, even if I had no emotions, I could still determine that certain things are good, bad, beautiful, disgusting, etc., just because I know what's considered to be good, bad, better, worse, etc.

That means I could look at a certain situation without my positive emotions, and still determine that this is a good situation, even though I see nothing good about that situation. If I were to see the situation as good (feel good about it), that's the same thing as a value judgment. But, since I can't see anything good without my positive emotions, then that means I can't have a value judgment of the situation being good without my positive emotions.

Therefore, all I can do without my positive emotions is simply determine that certain things are good, and it would be no different than how a person makes other determinations from the knowledge he's gained throughout his life, such as making mathematical and scientific determinations through the knowledge of math and science he's gained.

Lastly, when you personally see beauty or horror in something, those are personal feelings, and those feelings would be emotions. Determining that something is beautiful or horrific is, again, different than your personal feeling that it's beautiful or horrific. For example, a person can determine that a certain song is beautiful, and he can know, in his mind, that it's a beautiful song. But, he might see nothing beautiful about the song. He might see it as lame or awful, which would be his personal feeling.

Also, someone could listen to a certain song in the absence of his positive emotions, and conclude, based upon the musical knowledge he has, that it would be a beautiful song many people would love to listen to. He might notice the song has certain technical aspects that lead him to this conclusion, such as the choice of instruments, that the singer sings gracefully, etc. But, he wouldn't love the song, or see any beauty in it, since he doesn't have his positive emotions, which means he can't feel that way about the song.

I Need My Positive Emotions To Not Give Up On My Goals And Dreams: A life without positive emotions is no way to live or be an artist, as I said before, regardless of what artistic contributions you make to the world, or how you live your life. Many people might find that offensive. But, I don't care how much my views offend people. I'm entitled to my views, and if people don't like them, then they can just leave. Each person has his own personal experience, and his personal views. But, if said views were to offend you, then that's the way it is. That's just life, and you just need to accept that each person is unique, and has his own views.

I realize many famous works of art were inspired by negative emotions. But, that doesn't change my views one bit. It's not about what we do in life, and what mark we've made upon this world. It's all about if we're having a positive experience or not. So, if you're not having a positive experience (a positive perspective), and you changed the world, made new discoveries, new inventions, or contributed genius works of art, then that's still no way to live or be an artist. So many people look on the outside, and not on the inside. If they see someone who's done kind deeds throughout his life, then they automatically assume this person lived a good, beautiful, worthwhile life.

They don't take into consideration the type of experience that person was having when he was doing these kind deeds. The fact is, if that person wasn't having a positive experience (that is, if he wasn't feeling any positive emotions), and people said his life was beautiful and worthwhile, then people are just judging by how things appear on the outside, and dismissing his inner experience. I realize miserable, genius artists would even disagree with my view that their misery was no way to live or be an artist. But, perhaps they, too, don't determine the quality of their lives by what type of experience they have, and instead by what deeds they've done, and by the artwork they've created.

Anyway, so many people always talk about thinking positive, and avoiding negative thinking, since they say negative thinking is no way to live or be an artist. Apathetic (neither positive nor negative) thinking is also said to be no way to live or be an artist. Well, I'm just switching that over from thoughts to emotions. So, I'm saying we should have positive emotions, and avoid negative emotions, as well as apathy (no emotions), since having negative emotions, or apathy, is no way to live or be an artist.

But, if I had the choice between apathy or negative emotions, I'd choose to be in an apathetic state than to feel negative emotions because negative emotions are what give us negative experiences. Feeling enraged, having the desire to give up on life and my goals, seeing myself, and others, as disgusting, etc. are negative experiences/negative emotions. When I'm apathetic, at least I don't care about anything, nothing can bother me, and I'm no longer in a state of mental turmoil/suffering. Still, the goal is to have positive emotions, and being apathetic is still no way to live or be an artist.

It's just not as bad as feeling negative emotions, such as misery, disgust, hate, tragedy, etc. Apathy is actually neither good nor bad, since positive emotions are good, and negative emotions are bad. It's always been assumed that positive thinking is good and holy, negative thinking is bad and unholy, and apathetic thinking is neither good nor bad, and neither holy nor unholy. But, I'm just switching that from thoughts to emotions. Sure, we do need to think positive in order to feel positive emotions. But, positive thinking, in the absence of positive feelings, is no way to live, and is nothing good.

Positive thoughts need to make us feel positive to give our lives perceived goodness, beauty, worth, etc. Anyway, continuing on here. I've had many miserable struggles in my life, which were caused by negative thoughts and worries that have devastated me. You could call these struggles an emotional crisis. These struggles have caused me to feel many negative emotions, and I realize there will be people who'd tell me to persevere in my goals and dreams, despite feeling negative emotions that compel me to give up, and make me miserable.

There's no way I'm going to persevere when I'm like this, since, like I said, it's no way to live or be an artist. Not only that, persevering would only cause me to feel more rage and misery, since I'm not doing well, and need my positive emotions back to me. That's why I'd wait for my psyche to fully recover on its own from the emotional crisis. That way, all those negative emotions would be gone, and I'd have my feelings of joy back to me, which would allow me to enjoy my life, goals, and dreams.

The same idea applies to being apathetic. When I don't care about my goals and dreams, there's no way I'm going to persevere in them. My goal and dream is to be a composer who composes awesome, memorable music to share to the world. I wish to compose bizarre, profound, otherworldly music that's unheard of. But, I need my positive emotions to do so, and this Earthly existence is a very unfortunate place, since positive emotions are fleeting things.

Fortunately, as long as I don't have an emotional crisis, I've been known to enjoy my life, and hobbies, all throughout the day. Now that I'm almost fully recovered from this recent emotional crisis I've had (which took the longest to recover from), I think I'll soon be able to enjoy my life and hobbies. Hopefully, nothing else takes my positive emotions away from me, such as brain damage, or developing some sort of mental illness that's known to take them away.

But, it's taking an extremely long time for me to fully recover from this emotional crisis, and my positive emotions haven't returned back to me this whole time. If I were to pursue my composing dream anyway, and not give up on it, that won't do anything to restore my positive emotions. So, what I have to do here is just give up composing for now, and instead turn my sights over to certain therapeutic methods that have been known to help people who've had tribulation in their lives.

These methods should help restore my positive emotions, which means they should help me reach that state of full recovery I need to be in. Even though I'd be doing something to help myself in the absence of my positive emotions, it's still no way to live without positive emotions, regardless of what I do for myself, or for others. Still, I'm getting that help anyway, and getting this help should allow me to enjoy my life and hobbies again. I absolutely refuse, and can't stand living my life, and doing my hobbies without my positive emotions. That's why I'm instead researching certain methods that have been known to help speed up the recovery process.

Positive Emotions Are Divine States: Having a positive perspective in life is vital and precious because, without it, then our lives could only be empty (valueless), or bad, horrible, tragic, disgusting, etc. from our perspective. Therefore, a positive perspective is a vital and precious mental state, and that's the reason why I'd describe it as being a divine state.

Since it's divine, then I think positive emotions are god's divine, holy light within us, given that positive emotions are the positive perspectives we need. Without his holy light, then we become beings of darkness through our negative emotions, or empty vessels without our emotions.

The goal would, therefore, be to become beings of light through our positive emotions, and to avoid the negative emotions, as well as apathy. Sadly, positive emotions are very fleeting things, and many people struggle with depression, due to no fault of their own.

This means all those depressed, genius artists, who believed their lives were rich in beauty and greatness, were believing a lie. It would be no different than a poor person believing he's rich when he's not. In order to be rich in the beauty and greatness in your life, then you need to be rich in positive emotions. Having little to no positive emotions can only render your life with little to no perceived beauty and greatness.

We Need The Light: People who have near death experiences report they've met a being of light in the higher, heavenly realms known as "God" or "The Light." It is a ball of light that consists of pure joyful, loving, beautiful energy. Our brains are receivers that pick up on The Light's invisible, spiritual energy here on Earth. It would be like how a radio picks up radio waves. Even though these waves are invisible, they still exist.

Once received by our brains, The Light's beautiful energy becomes a divine mental state. It becomes a positive emotional state. Positive emotions are, therefore, the experience of The Light's divine power within us. We need this light within us to make our lives beautiful, and to create a paradise here on Earth for us. Without the light, then our lives would amount to nothing good or beautiful.

As for our negative emotions, this would be dark/negative energy from the lower realms, picked up by our brains. So, our goal is to receive as much light as possible, and to avoid receiving the darkness/negative energy, as well as apathy. Sadly, there are many factors that can prevent our brains from receiving the light, and it would be no different than preventing a radio from receiving the signal.

I Need To Become The Being Of Light; Not The Being Of Darkness: If I had the choice, I'd choose to have no negative emotions in my life. Some people would say this is unbalanced. But, if there was an item that could only make my life horrible, bad, or disgusting, then I'd obviously choose to rid of that item out of my life. I treat negative emotions as being that item. If I never had negative emotions in the first place, then I wouldn't have struggled much of my life with all those horrible, miserable moments, and neither would I feel violent or disgust towards myself or others.

When I have negative emotions, I become a horrible, disgusting, violent, or morbid being of darkness, and I can only see things in life from a negative perspective. But, when I have my positive emotions, I become a being of light, since I become something positive, beautiful, and joyful. I need to become that divine, magnificent, angelic being of light, which is the reason why I'd choose to only have positive emotions. But, I'd also want to avoid apathy, since apathy is how I become an empty vessel (neither a being of light nor a being of darkness).

Euphoria Is The Best Thing: The more profound and intense the positive emotions you feel, the more beauty and joy your life has. The less degree of positive emotions you feel, the less beauty and joy your life has. This would have to mean getting high on drugs would be the most beautiful, joyful life to live. Drugs allow you to receive the greatest amount of The Light's divine energy. But, I wouldn't do drugs, just from the idea in my mind of the harm and consequences.

The more profound and intense the negative emotions you feel, the worse your life is. That's why we should avoid things, such as emotional traumas, since these are the worst emotional states that put you into the worst states of misery. If I had the choice to either live my life, paralyzed in a bed, and feeling profound bliss, or to be in the worst miserable state of my life, but live the life of my dreams, then I'd choose to be the blissful vegetable in that bed because it doesn't matter how much luxury or riches I have.

Without my positive emotions, none of those things can be beautiful and worthwhile in my life. It's not about external factors, such as how much money or luxury you have, how much you've helped others and contributed to the world, and neither is it about making the best of things and what mark we've made upon this world. It's all about what mental state we are in. Since positive emotions are the only mental states that bring our lives beauty and worth, then there's nothing more beautiful and worthwhile to life than positive emotions.

Packet #4 (Part 1/3):


Note to Reader: This packet attempts to explain more in regards to why my positive emotions are the only things that can make my life and composing dream something beautiful, joyful, and worth living for. This time, my worldview is expressed in the form of a religion.

It's my own personal religion, which means I'm not a Christian, a Buddhist, or any other spiritual believer. In essence, my religion would be a religious form of the emotional perception theory of value. It would be a hedonistic religion. I talk more about hedonism later on in this packet.

This religion of mine is meant for people who are casual and wish to live happy, fun lives. It's nothing like other religions, which expect us to refrain from and transcend our hedonistic impulses, and to serve a god, even if it made us feel unhappy or miserable. Now, if some of this is incoherent gibberish to you, then I don't know what to say. I've tried my best to explain, and that's all I can do. Sometimes, when I write things, people might not be able to understand them, and I'd be willing to clarify some things if need be.

In addition, I'd also be willing to address any objections other people have to my worldview in a future packet. As for this packet, it has a lot of additional information, along with a recap and a conclusion, which have some more things to say. There are also a couple of side notes, as well as a final statement at the end. Lastly, I'm not shoving my views down anyone's throat. I'm not forcing them upon anyone and expecting others to live by them.

All I'm doing is sharing them, and people are free to agree or disagree with them. I personally think positive emotions are the only mental states that allow moments, things, situations, and works of art to become beautiful, awesome, magnificent, good, valuable, precious, and worthwhile to us. In other words, positive emotions are the only way to perceive/experience moments, things, and situations as beautiful, good, valuable, precious, worthwhile, etc.

Another Example: First of all, I'm going to give another example of how our emotions are the only real value judgments and the only real perceptions of value. I'll use the color red as an example. Seeing (perceiving) the color red isn't the same thing as thinking of red in your mind. Thoughts and beliefs are just concepts or ideas, and that's not the same thing as actual red.

So, if you weren't seeing red and just had the thought of it, you'd only be perceiving the idea of red, but not any real red. Likewise, thinking "This is horrific" or "This is beautiful" without your emotions isn't the same thing as an actual value judgment, and neither would you be perceiving real beauty or horror. Rather, you'd only be perceiving the idea of beauty or horror.

In other words, only feelings of beauty or horror (which are emotions) can allow you to perceive things, people, and situations, as beautiful or horrific. Also, my colors analogy was just an analogy to get my point across, and I could've used another analogy, such as the hunger and thirst analogy I made earlier, which states that thoughts and beliefs alone can't give us hunger and thirst, just as how they, alone, can't give us the perception of beauty or horror.

Positive Is Positive And Negative Is Negative: As I said before, only positive emotions make our lives beautiful. It makes no sense to say negative emotions can make our lives beautiful, since it would be no different than saying a negative charge can be a positive charge. Negative emotions can't be anything beautiful in our lives, since they don't give us any beautiful experience.

Only positive emotions give us the beautiful experience, and only negative emotions give us the horrible, disgusting, tragic, etc. experiences. Having no emotions (apathy) would only render our lives without any beautiful or horrible experience. Just having the thought or belief that you're having a beautiful or horrible experience is, again, not the same thing as an actual beautiful or horrible experience.

People Live By The Wrong Definitions: I realize many people define love and happiness as non-emotional, which means they think they can love others, and experience happiness, with no need for their emotions. But, if a person was dying of thirst in a desert, and he needed to drink water to save his life, then it must be real water. He can't just have an empty glass and say: "I'm going to define the emptiness inside this glass as water, drink it, and my life will be saved!" It just wouldn't be real water.

My point is, people can certainly define love and happiness as non-emotional. But, it's not real love or happiness. You can't love someone or be happy if you're not feeling love or happiness (which are positive emotions). The same idea applies to pride. Many people would say something, such as: "Even though I have a depressive illness that renders me with a complete absence of positive emotions, I did all that work anyway, and I'm proud of my efforts."

This, too, is the wrong definition of pride, since a person can't be proud unless he feels proud (a positive emotion). People also live by the wrong definition of motivation because having the intention to do something without emotions, and doing it, isn't the same thing as being motivated to do that thing. Emotions are what motivate us. You need to feel motivated to be motivated, just as how you need to feel proud to be proud, and feel love to love.

Thoughts and feelings aren't the same thing, and feelings are transient things. So, unfortunately, love is fleeting, pride is fleeting, motivation is fleeting, etc. Actually, there are other forms of motivation besides emotions, such as feelings of hunger, thirst, the urge to have a bowel movement, and physical pain. But, these forms of motivation don't make things good, bad, beautiful, amazing, horrible, etc. in our eyes. Only emotions can do that.

One might ask: "If there are other forms of motivation, then why can't a person's thoughts and intentions alone be a form of motivation for him?" Well, that's because we require feelings to motivate us, and thoughts and intentions alone can't be feelings. So, if you had no feelings whatsoever (which also means no emotions), then it wouldn't matter what mindset you had because that mindset can never be a form of motivation for you.

Lastly, feelings are how we experience things because you need to feel hungry and thirsty to experience hunger and thirst, you need to feel physical pain and physical pleasure to experience them, you need to feel sleepy to experience sleepiness, you need to feel happy to experience happiness, you need to feel love to experience love, and you need to feel that life's beautiful to experience it as beautiful (which is the same thing as seeing/perceiving beauty in life, since perception and experience are the same thing, which I explained in my previous packet).

Let's pretend a person had insomnia, which prevented him from feeling sleepy. He wouldn't be able to will himself to feel sleepy, and neither could he make himself feel sleepy by having thoughts of wanting to feel sleepy. So, he wouldn't be able to be sleepy. The same idea applies to other feelings, such as hunger, thirst, etc. If someone has a mental illness, or brain damage, which disables those feelings, then he can't bring those feelings back by sheer will. He'd need to somehow address the mental illness, or brain damage, in order for those feelings to return.

Another way those feelings would return would be if the mental illness, or brain damage, went into recovery on its own. Love, happiness, pride, motivation, seeing beauty in life, etc. are no different. Just because they're so precious doesn't mean they can't be taken away from us. After all, things that are precious to us are also fleeting things. Sure, a person might be able to experience those feelings of happiness, love, beauty, etc. on seldom occasions, despite having a mental illness (such as clinical depression) that takes them away.

But, if that person really wants his life back to him again, where he can have many moments of happiness, love, seeing beauty in life, etc., then he'll need to address his mental illness, if his mental illness doesn't seem to be recovering too well on its own, and he needs treatment to restore his feelings of happiness, love, beauty, etc. Unfortunately, some people are treatment resistant, and have to live with an absence of happiness, love, beauty, etc. I know I wouldn't want to live like that.

Positive Emotions Are The Eyes Of An Angel: If a song was lame and awful in one person's eyes, then what would it matter to that person if you told him that song is beautiful? He's still going to perceive it as lame and awful. Likewise, if life is nothing beautiful and worth living in one person's eyes, then what would it matter to that person if you told him his life is still beautiful and worth living? Since positive emotions are the only things that give us the perception of beauty and worth, then it wouldn't matter to me if people told me that I'm still a beautiful person, or that my life is still beautiful and worth living without my positive emotions.

That's because my life, and even my own self, would be nothing beautiful or worthwhile in my eyes. The same thing applies if I saw myself, and my life, as beautiful and worthwhile. If someone told me that me, and my life, is horrible, disgusting, and worthless, then that wouldn't matter to me either. Hopefully, this gives you an understanding as to why we need positive emotions, since not seeing anything as good, beautiful, and worth living for is no way to live or be an artist.

You must also remember that I can talk about how positive emotions are good and beautiful all I want to without my positive emotions. But, that's not the same thing as me seeing them as good and beautiful. In other words, I need my positive emotions to see my positive emotions as good and beautiful. Any given idea, whether it be me living a life of joy, or achieving my goals and dreams, can only be seen as good, beautiful, and worthwhile through my positive emotions.

Positive emotions are, therefore, like the eyes of an angel, since they allow us to see goodness, beauty, and worth in things. Without these eyes, then we've become blinded to all goodness, beauty, worth, magnificence, etc. In other words, we've become blinded to all positivity. Negative emotions, on the other hand, are like the eyes of a demon, or being of darkness, since they allow us to see negativity. They allow us to see people, and things, as horrible, bad, disgusting, tragic, horrific, etc.

The idea is to have a positive perspective, and not a negative one. So, we should avoid those dark eyes. When we're apathetic (emotionless), we just have our ordinary, human eyes, and we don't have the eyes of an angel, or being of darkness. So, we should avoid apathy as well. Positive perspectives are divine, holy mental states that should be sought, while negative perspectives are unholy mental states that should be avoided. Apathy is neither holy nor unholy.

So, positive emotions (positive perspectives) are holy, and should be sought. Moments where we don't have positive emotions are the moments it's no way to live or be an artist. So, we should have as many moments of feeling positive emotions as we can. I'll actually give you an example of how positive emotions are holy, and negative emotions being unholy. Many people always talk about love being holy and divine, and how it should be sought.

Well, as I said before, love is a positive emotion. So, since one positive emotion is holy (a feeling of love), then all other positive emotions are holy, such as feelings of joy, beauty, sexual arousal, etc. The same idea applies to negative emotions. Many people always talk about hate being unholy, and how it should be avoided. Well, hate is a negative emotion. That means all other negative emotions are unholy, such as feelings of disgust, horror, misery, etc.

All positive emotions are put in the holy category, and all negative emotions are put in the unholy category. So, if you have any given positive emotion, then that emotion is a holy emotion, and, if you have any given negative emotion, then that emotion is an unholy emotion. The more horrible of an experience a negative emotion is, the more unholy it is. For example, if you felt profound and intense misery from witnessing the loss of your loved one, then that would be a very horrible experience for you. So, your misery would be very unholy.

But, if you felt a trivial, shallow form of misery that wasn't that bad at all, such as feeling a bit bummed out, since you didn't get to see your favorite movie, then that form of misery wouldn't be very unholy. It would still be unholy. But, it would be nowhere near as unholy as the misery you experienced from losing your loved one. The same idea applies to positive emotions. The more amazing and beautiful of an experience a positive emotion is, the more holy it is. Take note that I define positive emotions as holy, and negative emotions as unholy, no matter what.

So, if a psychopath felt love and joy from harming living things, then that psychopath was still having a holy, divine experience. He was just using this experience for his own harmful purposes. It would be like a character in a movie using a holy relic for his own sinister deeds. That relic was still holy, regardless of how he used it. Also, water is still water, no matter if it's used to benefit others, or drown others. Likewise, positive emotions are still good and holy, regardless if they're used to benefit others, or harm others. Positive emotions are the only good, amazing, beautiful, divine, holy, etc. things in life.

Negative emotions are the only bad, unholy, horrible, tragic, horrific, disgusting, etc. things in life. So, if a person felt horribly tragic (a negative emotion) about the loss of his loved one, then that loss was tragic/unholy for him. That means the loss was a tragic, horrible, and unholy experience for him, and our goal as human beings is to, again, avoid such negative experiences. But, if he didn't feel that way, then the loss wasn't tragic/unholy for him. As a matter of fact, if he felt amazing about the loss of his loved one, then that loss was amazing/holy for him. Another example would be if I felt positive emotions about my composing dream.

That would make my composing good, beautiful, and worthwhile for me. You could also say my composing becomes holy/positive for me through my positive emotions. As you can see, positive and negative emotions are the only source of good, bad, holiness, unholiness, tragedy, horror, beauty, worth, etc. They're the only things that color moments, people, situations, objects, etc. in goodness, badness, beauty, horror, etc. Our emotions color our world. They create a beautiful, tragic, erotic, etc. atmosphere for us. That means they create an atmosphere for us that's perceived as beautiful, tragic, erotic, etc. Apathy creates a dull, gray world for us.

Emotions are value judgments, as I said before. So, when an emotion attributes a judgment of beauty or horror to our world, that colors our world in beauty or horror, since that judgment is a perception of beauty or horror. That means emotions can also be called perceptions of beauty, horror, tragedy, etc. in addition to being called value judgments. Again, emotions are the only value judgments, and they're the only way to see (perceive) beauty, horror, etc. in regards to things. That's why I've been referring to emotions as being the eyes of an angel, and the eyes of darkness. People deny the fact that emotions are value judgments, and perceptions of beauty, horror, etc.

Packet #3:


Note to Reader: In my packets, I make a distinction between thoughts and emotions. The reason why is because, during my miserable moments, no positive thought could make me feel a positive emotion. Not only that, but people, who struggle with clinical depression, can't feel positive emotions, no matter what positive thoughts they think. That's because their brains aren't functioning properly. As you can see, I make a distinction between positive thoughts and positive emotions, and negative thoughts and negative emotions. I treat intellect and emotions as 2, separate things.

Intro: I've struggled with many miserable moments in my life, and my emotional experiences were something powerful and profound. This experience has led me to a conclusion that I'm desperate to prove. I've been trying to prove it time after time. But, all those attempts have failed, since I didn't present and explain it the best way I possibly could. What's more, I just couldn't find a way to explain it at the time. However, I think I finally got it right this time. People deny and dismiss my emotional experiences as being nothing more than "trivial feelings" because humanity has a huge misconception regarding emotions.

They think they're nothing more than biochemical induced states in the brain when, in reality, they're literally the experience of beauty, joy, horror, tragedy, suffering, disgust, etc. in our lives. Humanity also has a huge misconception regarding their intellect because they believe what they think is what gives them beautiful, joyful, or horrible experiences, and that their emotions don't give them such experiences. This packet I make attempts to clear up these misconceptions. Sure, intellect does play a role in our lives, and certain thoughts we think can make us feel certain emotions.

But, I think it can only be the emotions themselves that give our lives value and those experiences mentioned earlier. Many people might disagree with this view. But, I think my personal views are the truth, and I don't care how offensive they are; the truth is often times offensive, and people don't like to hear it. But, I'm going to share and express that truth anyway. I'm tired of my own personal experience being denied, and that's why I'm sharing this. Since people are denying my personal experience, then I'll return the favor and deny theirs. With that being said, I would like to begin:

Explanation Of My Philosophy: Buddhists and other people talk about suffering, and how we suffer through our ways of thinking and believing. But, thoughts and beliefs themselves can't be any real form of suffering for us, since thoughts/beliefs are just concepts or ideas, and not the real thing/experience. I'll give you an example.

If you're not feeling hungry or thirsty, then the thought, or belief, that you're hungry or thirsty, isn't the same thing as being hungry or thirsty. It's just the idea, or thought, of being hungry and thirsty, and that's not the same thing as actual hunger or thirst. Likewise, thinking of the most horrible things in your life, and believing that you're suffering, isn't the same thing as actual suffering.

How we suffer is through negative emotions, such as feelings of misery, agony, or despair. Buddhists and other people also talk about happiness. Again, positive emotions are the only mental states that allow us to be happy and enjoy things. There's no other mental state that can allow us to be happy. Also, people claim there is an intellectual form of emotions (that thoughts and emotions can be the same thing).

I disagree with this because, again, thoughts and beliefs aren't the real things. It doesn't matter how emotional people act through their intellect; I still think people are just acting out on thoughts/beliefs, and not any real emotions. Therefore, it can only be the primitive, instinctive emotions which are the real emotions.

An example of these emotions would be a feeling of panic from being in a dangerous situation, a feeling of excitement from going to the carnival, or a feeling of sexual arousal. This means, even if you felt positive emotions from doing intellectual activities, that still wouldn't be an intellectual form of emotions. You'd still be feeling the primitive, instinctive emotions.

As you can see here, the intellectual area of our brains cannot experience emotions, sounds, smells, colors, hunger, thirst, pain, heat, cold, suffering, or happiness. Rather, it can only experience thoughts, beliefs, and ideas. Another thing here. People also claim they can judge things as good, bad, beautiful, horrible, or disgusting through their thinking. We call them intellectual value judgments.

Again, thoughts and beliefs themselves aren't the real things, which means our intellectual value judgments aren't real value judgments. It can only be our emotions which are the real value judgments. Emotional theorists and neuroscientists refer to our emotions as being value judgments, since our emotions tell us things, such as that our lives are beautiful, we are disgusting, etc.

Even though they're unreliable value judgments, since relying on what our emotions tell us will get us in trouble, I still think they're the only value judgments. This means the only thing that can attribute value to things in our lives is our emotions, which means our emotions are the only way things can have certain types of value in our lives, whether it be good, bad, beautiful, disgusting, etc.

When you judge something as being horrible or beautiful, that's no different than saying you perceive that thing as horrible or beautiful. This means the only way we can perceive/judge something as horrible or beautiful would be if we felt a certain emotion from that said thing. Otherwise, you'd only be perceiving the idea of horror and beauty, and not any real horror or beauty.

In short, our emotions are the only real value judgments, and they're the only real perceptions of value. Perception and experience are the same thing. An example would be, if you're seeing (perceiving) the color red, then you're experiencing the color red, and vice versa.

This means the only way we can experience things in this life as beautiful, great, horrible, tragic, or disgusting would be through our emotions. Positive emotions are the only things that can make our lives good, great, beautiful, and they're the only things that can give us the experience of beauty, greatness, and joy, since they're value judgments of good, beauty, joy, and greatness.

Negative emotions are the only things that can make our lives bad, horrible, disgusting, and they're the only things that can give us the experience of horror, tragedy, despair, misery, disturbance, and disgust, since they're value judgments of bad, horrible, tragic, morbid, disturbing, disgust, etc.

Having no emotions (apathy) can only render our lives with no horrible or beautiful experience at all. It would be a dull, empty, valueless life, since no value would be perceived. Therefore, the goal in life should be to avoid negative emotions, as well as apathy, and to pursue positive emotions, since positive emotions are the only beautiful way to live and be an artist.

There's a worldview out there known as hedonism, which advocates this way of life. It's a philosophy which states that positive emotions are the only good things in life. Sadly, positive emotions are very fleeting things, and many people struggle with depression.

This means living a life that is beautiful, great, joyful, and worth living doesn't come around too often, considering that life has many miserable, unhappy moments. With all of this being said, people are confusing thoughts and beliefs for the real things. But, this packet I've made makes a clear distinction between thoughts/beliefs and the real things, since it makes a distinction between what we think and believe, as opposed to what we're actually experiencing.

For me, my positive emotions are the positive experience, and I've yet to acquire a new positive experience in my life to convince me there's more beauty, fun, joy, and greatness to life than positive emotions. Lastly, I'd like to share a link to the emotional perception theory of value. Those who disagree with it would have to be in denial of their own emotions and, thus, they'd also have to be in denial when it comes to their intellect.

If they think emotions aren't value judgments, and that they're not any perception of value, then they could also be in denial when they claim their intellectual value judgments are real value judgments, and that their intellect is the perception of value. One of the people who disagrees with this theory is the person in this link who attempts to prove emotional theorists wrong, and I disagree with him/her based upon my own personal experience:


Also, here's another link, which explains why emotions are value judgments:


Different Areas Of The Brain Will Experience Different Things: For example, the visual cortex will experience visuals, the audio cortex will experience sound, another area will experience smells, another will experience hunger, other areas allow us to feel emotions, etc. As I said before, the intellectual area of our brains cannot experience any of those things, and it can only experience thoughts and intentions.

Sure, certain thoughts can send signals to any one of those brain regions to allow us to experience those things, such as if you felt hungry and thirsty from thinking of your favorite food and beverage. But, as long as that thought doesn't send the signal to those areas of the brain, then you can't experience hunger and thirst via thought.

As a result, you can only have the thought of being hungry and thirsty, or the thought of your favorite food and beverage. The same idea applies to beauty, joy, worth, etc. People who struggle with chronic, clinical depression can't feel positive emotions, no matter what thoughts they think, because their brains aren't working properly.

As a result, those thoughts can't send the signal to the areas of the brain that allows them to feel positive emotions. Thus, they can't experience any beauty, greatness, love, happiness, worth, joy, or anything positive in their lives.

Therefore, they can only have the thought that their lives are beautiful and worth living, while the sad reality is that their lives are empty and passing them by. However, if there are moments where they can feel positive emotions, then those are the moments where their lives, and any given endeavor (such as the helping of others), can be perceived as beautiful and worth living for.

Emotions Make Things Matter To Us: Let me say another thing here, which I think is important. Emotions are a form of motivation and, when you're motivated in regards to something, that's no different than saying something matters to you. This means emotions are mental states where things matter to us. When something matters to you, that's no different than saying something has value from your perspective.

Positive emotions make things, people, moments, works of art, and situations matter to us in positive ways, and negative emotions make things matter to us in negative ways. That's no different than saying positive emotions make things beautiful, awesome, or good from our perspective, while negative emotions make things horrible, bad, or disgusting from our perspective.

Without any emotions (apathy), then nothing can matter to us at all, and people would only be confused and in denial to believe otherwise. As you can see here, that's why I need my positive emotions to make my life something positive, beautiful, and worth living for. Therefore, I should live my life, seeking as much positive emotions as I possibly can.

Without emotions, then life is just life. But, our positive emotions make life something more. They makes it into a beautiful, amazing, joyful work of art. In summary, since emotions are the only way things can matter to us, then they're also the only way things can be good, bad, beautiful, horrible, disgusting, valuable, precious, worthwhile, etc. to us.

Hint: Here's a hint which supports my worldview/claim. Haven't you ever felt that your life was horrible, that someone in your life was a disgusting person, or that a certain thing was beautiful? Well, that's no different than perceiving your life as horrible, someone as disgusting, or a certain thing as beautiful. You should pay very close attention to your emotions next time.

Only then should you come to realize that they're perceptions/value judgments of beauty, horror, disgust, etc. In addition, you should also pay very close attention to your intellectual value judgments. You should come to realize they're not real value judgments, since they're just thoughts or beliefs, and not the real experience of beauty, horror, disgust, etc.

Note to Reader: This is my absolute, best final summary below, and I want you to read it. There's a conclusion below this summary for you to read as well:

This is what I've gathered from my own personal experience. How you think is how you will feel. It's as though your thoughts take on an emotional form. For example, if you have a proud thought, that thought will send an emotional signal to the other region of your brain that allows you to feel positive emotions. Once your brain gets the signal, you feel proud (a positive emotion). Likewise, if you have a negative thought, such as a thought of guilt or disgust, that thought will send the signal to the other region of your brain that allows you to feel negative emotions.

Once your brain gets the signal from that thought, you feel guilt or disgust (a negative emotion). From this, I conclude that our thoughts transfer their information over to the emotional areas of our brain, which allows us to feel whatever we thought of. But, here's the catch. Feeling proud is the only way to be proud, feeling guilt is the only way to have guilt, and feeling disgust is the only way to be disgusted. This is because thoughts themselves are just ideas of pride, guilt, and disgust.

But, they're not the actual experience of those things. Another example would be that the thought of hunger, thirst, and pain is just the idea of those things. But, they're not the same thing. If you're not experiencing hunger, thirst, or pain, and you wish to experience them through your thoughts, then those thoughts must send the signal to make you feel hungry, thirsty, or pain. If they don't send the signal, then you're just left with the idea of those things without the actual experience of them.

As you can see, thoughts and beliefs themselves are not how we love, have joy, have pride, guilt, shame, disgust, want, like, hate, have an interest in something, etc. It's the emotions these thoughts and beliefs make us feel that allow us to love, have joy, etc. Thoughts and emotions can't be the same thing either because, like I said, thoughts and beliefs only give us the idea or concept of emotions in our minds. You need to get an emotional signal to your brain from your thoughts and beliefs to feel an actual emotion.

So, intellect and emotions are two separate things, which means they're two separate regions of the brain. There's the emotional area of our brains, and then there's the intellectual, thinking area of our brains. Positive emotions are also the only way we can value things, moments, people, situations, works of art, etc., since they're the only way to experience the valuing of things. Positive emotions allow us to value things as beautiful, joyful, magnificent, amazing, good, great, etc., while our negative emotions allow things and situations to be horrible, tragic, disgusting, awful, evil, bad, etc. for us.

In order to value something as beautiful, you need to have the thought that something's beautiful in your life (such as helping someone out). Once that thought makes you feel beauty in regards to that thing, that's how you value said thing as beautiful. The thought or belief, by itself, does not allow you to value that thing as beautiful. So, positive emotions are the only things that make life good, beautiful, and worth living, since they're the only things that give goodness, beauty, and worth to our lives. They're the only beautiful, worthwhile way to live and be an artist. Having negative emotions, or no emotions at all (apathy), is no way to live or be an artist.

Unfortunately, there are many factors that can prevent thoughts and beliefs from making us feel positive emotions, which makes positive emotions very fleeting things. An example would be clinical depression, emotional trauma, brain damage, feeling low on energy since you didn't get something to eat, etc. That makes life a very sad, unfortunate place, where things like beauty, love, joy, and goodness are very fleeting things. There are also factors that can prevent thoughts and beliefs from making us feel negative emotions. But, we don't need negative emotions.

To Conclude This Packet: Feeling hungry is the only way to experience hunger, feeling thirsty is the only way to experience thirst, feeling physical pain is the only way to experience physical pain, and feeling sleepy is the only way to experience sleepiness. If you want your life to be beautiful and worth living to you, then you must experience your life as beautiful and worth living.

So, you must feel that it's beautiful and worth living (since that's the only way to experience it as beautiful and worth living). That feeling would be a positive emotion. If you wish to love someone, then you must experience love. That means you must feel love. Again, that feeling would be a positive emotion.

Let me remind you that there's a difference between thoughts or beliefs, and feelings. Now, depressed people, without their positive emotions, can't experience their lives as beautiful and worth living, since they can't feel it's beautiful and worth living. So, that means their lives can't be beautiful and worth living, and they can only have the thought, or belief, that it's beautiful and worth living to them, when it's really not.

But, moments depressed people do feel positive/happy emotions would be the moments their lives are beautiful and worth living, since these are the moments they can feel their lives are beautiful and worth living. These would also be the moments they can love, since they can feel love.

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Note to Reader: When I say positive emotions are the only way we can value things as beautiful, I mean the only way we can value things as beautiful is through our positive emotions. When I say positive emotions are the only way our lives can be beautiful, I mean our lives can only be beautiful through our positive emotions.

This is a summary of my worldview for anyone pressed for time. My positive emotions are the only things that can make my life and composing dream something good, beautiful, and worth living for. I'm going to explain why. My positive emotions are the only way I can value things in life, which means I can't value things intellectually.

As a matter of fact, I don't recall a single given moment in my life where I valued things intellectually. My positive emotions, or what people like to call, the good feelings, such as feelings of happiness, fun, love, and joy, are the only way I can value things as beautiful, good, magnificent, amazing, worthwhile, etc.

My negative emotions, or the bad feelings, such as feelings of misery, disgust, and rage, are the only way things, moments, and situations can be horrible, bad, disgusting, tragic, etc. to me. In other words, I need to feel a negative emotion in order for something in my life to become horrible, disgusting, or tragic from my perspective, and I need to feel a positive emotion in order for something to be good, beautiful, or worthwhile to me.

So, I need my positive emotions to make my life something good, beautiful, and worthwhile, and I should avoid the negative emotions, as well as apathy. When I'm apathetic (emotionless), I can't value anything in my life at all. Thus, when I'm apathetic, thinking, or believing, that something is beautiful or horrible in my life, doesn't allow that thing to become beautiful or horrible to me.

If people do value things intellectually, then it seems I don't have the capability to value things intellectually. Therefore, I have to solely rely on my primal impulses (emotions) in order for things to be horrible, good, bad, or beautiful to me. Unfortunately, emotions are very fleeting things, which means living a beautiful life would be something fleeting for me.

Also, I don't think thoughts and emotions can be the same thing, which means emotions are distinct from intellect. So, my emotional based values cannot take on the form of my intellect, which means intellect can't be any real source of value in my life no matter what. To conclude this summary, I explain much more in regards to my worldview, as well as my composing dream, on a cd.

The disc belongs in a laptop or computer, and you read the files on that disc. Lastly, there's one more thing I'd like to share, which would be a 2nd summary of my philosophy. In my other packets, I explain my philosophy in-depth, and I address as many objections as possible in the Q&A Sections of these packets. But, for now, here's the 2nd summary:


If a person loses his voice, he can no longer sing. If a person loses his legs, he can no longer walk. If a person loses his sight and hearing, he can no longer see and hear. Likewise, when a person loses his positive emotions, due to clinical depression or any other factor, he can no longer love, have joy, or value anything in his life as beautiful, good, amazing, awesome, magnificent, etc.

My point is, our ability to love, have joy, and value things in our lives, is something that can be taken away from us, and isn't something we can have all we want. Since happy emotions (a.k.a. positive emotions/pleasant emotions) are very fleeting things, then that makes the situation all the more worse.

Positive emotions are the only way to love, and they're the only things that can make life, works of art, and any artistic endeavor, good, beautiful, and worth living for to an individual/from an individual's perspective. For example, a beautiful song can be lame, awful, and nothing beautiful from one person's perspective, while it's beautiful from the perspective of many other people.

I think that perspective of beauty these people have would be a feeling of beauty (a positive emotion), while that one person, who saw the song as lame and awful, would be having a negative emotion (a feeling that the song was lame and awful). Another example would be that a painting can be worth a lot of money, and many people see (perceive) it as having a lot of worth.

But, it can be worthless trash in one person's eyes. So, the people who perceived the painting as having a lot of worth would be having a feeling of worth (a positive emotion) in regards to the painting, while that one person wouldn't have felt that way about the painting. Given this, I think positive emotions are the only way our lives can be perceived as good, beautiful, and worth living.

That means they're the only things that can make our lives good, beautiful, and worth living, and they're also the only way we can have a loving, joyful perspective towards ourselves, and others. Nothing can convince me otherwise. The only thing that will convince me would be a new personal experience that brings my life beauty, goodness, worth, love, and joy besides my positive emotions.

So far, I haven't had such an experience. Not even in one, single, brief moment of my entire life. I don't recall ever having such an experience. In other words, I don't recall ever experiencing love, joy, or beauty independently of my positive emotions.

Packet #1:


Note to Reader: So many people complain over every little thing, and lack appreciation. That even includes my writing. I think my writing is good enough, and some people out there can't appreciate it, due to their unreasonably high standards. Having such a high standard is unfair, and I ask others to lower it. This is what I discuss in this packet.

There are also other important things you need to know about my writing. Also, if people can't read my material because they just don't have the time, I can understand that. But, if they're not reading it because they think it's poorly written, then they're just being plain unfair. One more thing. I don't care if this writing skill notice turns readers away, and makes them not want to read any more of my material.

If you're the type of reader with a high writing standard, then you'll be turned away by my level of writing skill anyway, which doesn't meet your standard. So, I might as well give you this notice before you leave. As for the types of people who'd accept my writing, they shouldn't be turned away by this writing skill notice. Instead, they'd read it, sympathize with me, and agree with it.

Writing Skill Note: Other people would complain that my writing is very poor and not worth reading. But, I don't want to be a skilled writer, since that's not my goal in life. I just want to share my worldview to mental health professionals, my family, and other people, since it's important they understand why my positive emotions are the only things that can make my life beautiful and worth living.

I'm sharing my own personal arguments and my own personal life experience here, and I think that's important. Also, my spelling, grammar, punctuation, etc. is fine for the most part. So, I think other people would be having too high of a writing standard if they refuse to read my packets. I mean, I could understand it if my packets were so horribly written that nobody could understand them. But, that's clearly not the case.

I shouldn't be treated as a student in an English class, handing in a poorly written essay, and scoffed at for my lack of 100% skill in writing. This is me as a struggling individual, sharing and expressing his personal views, and I should be treated as such. Other people should have the compassion and concern to read through my packets.

If they treat me as a student in an English class, to be scoffed at, whose essays are not worth reading, then they're not being compassionate towards me and my predicament. Thus, they'd be a waste of time talking to. I clearly told these people I don't want to be a skilled writer, and they should understand that. So, rather than me meeting their high standards and expectations, they should instead lower their standards.

If I was a student in an English class, then, yes, I'd be expected to meet that teacher's standard of writing. I would not dare tell that teacher to lower his standards, to just accept my writing, and read through it all anyway. But, this is a different situation here, and that's why I expect other people to lower their writing standards and read through my packets.

Some people actually understood my writing quite well, and they said it was really good. They even said I'm a talented writer. So, I think it all depends on who you are, what standards you have, and what experience you've had. If you're someone who's read professionally written material his whole life, then you're very likely to have a higher standard.

You might find my writing very painful and incoherent to read. But, for someone who's used to reading average, everyday material written by family, friends, and people struggling, such as myself, your standards will be set lower. This will allow you to understand my writing much better, and my writing will appear above the average skill level.

Think of someone who's used to sleeping on the best beds, eating the best foods, and living in 1st class homes. This person will find it very unpleasant to sleep on an average bed, to eat average food, and to live in a low class home. But, for someone who's lived a low class life, he'll find the average lifestyle to be suitable or even better than he expected.

Here's one more example. If there was a son who played basketball and shot some hoops like an average player, that son might be a skilled player, according to the father's standard. But, according to the standard of a professional NBA player, that son would suck. I will say one last thing here to conclude this.

I have obsessive compulsive disorder, which means I might repeat things in my writing, drag things on much longer than they need to be, explain too much, say unnecessary things, etc. There are other flaws with my writing, too. Even though I've asked others to lower their standards and just accept my writing as it is, I'm willing to improve my writing.

If someone, who's a skilled writer, helps me revise my writing to make it better, I'm willing to do that. I know I've written a ton of material, and many people would ask me who's willing to sit down and read through all of this. My mother and therapist have read through all of this, since they're concerned for me, and are very interested in my personal views/personal experience.

Therefore, maybe there will be other people in this world who would bother reading through my packets as well. Perhaps not too many people. But, at least some. I'd also like others to read through the Q&A Sections of these packets as well, since they address any objections people have to my personal views on life, music, etc. The Q&A Sections also talk more about my views.